Day 120: Make tea, not war ♥ 火曜日・2015年1月13日

This morning, I woke up, and my body still hurt, and I had about ten minutes before a lesson started, but after dithering I still dragged myself out of bed. I kept wondering to myself, hobbling around on legs that felt like they could shatter at any minute, whether to just give up and go back to bed, especially every time I realized I couldn’t find something like a t-shirt or socks, but every time I thought such a thing, I would find what I needed. Class had already started by the time I was putting on my shoes, with which I had incredible difficulty putting on my feet as I couldn’t completely bend down and my arms were weak, but as soon as the thought crossed my mind, the shoe slipped on. Usually when I wake up and I realize even if I got up at that moment and rushed around getting ready I would be ten minutes late, I tend not to bother, as it’s embarrassing coming in late, but today I decided better late than never. I knew I’d regret it if I didn’t go. I think I’m finally starting to develop this strange thing called “willpower”. Am I finally becoming an adult?

It was the right decision. Being productive over being lazy is almost always the right decision. When I arrived, I just had to nod my head in apology and life continued on, forgetting about me within 5 seconds.

I was the one who ended up doing the tea ceremony today. It was my first time. When I realized it was going to me I did feel a tinge of regret for coming, as my arms were so weak, and I also later realized I’d forgotten those wipes that Fukuoka-sensei had lent us to wipe down the cups, but whatever, I did it.

It had been a while since I’d done tea ceremony. I think I was the slowest in the room out of all the groups that day, as 1) my arms were weak and I had to try doubly hard to not drop anything or set anything down too hard, 2) I kept doubting myself every time I went to do something. Do I put hot water in the cups next? Do I put the tea leaves in the pot first, or do I wipe down the cups first? The process is very complicated.

It turned out okay, though. And we had little pink mochi as our okashi (snack) to go with it, and they looked like little pink flowers.

In the next couple of weeks we have to do speeches in front of the class, 3-5 minutes long, about the culture of tea in our own country, as well as comparing it to tea in Japan. Using PowerPoint, and images, and so on. I’m actually really looking forward to this. As I’m British, and a tea-lover (often considered synonymous), this is like a dream come true, hahaha. Can I really fit all I want to say into 3-5 minutes?

We were let go early, so I decided to go to the supermarket. I got ingredients to make spaghetti bolognaise tonight (my cooking habits don’t really vary that much… I need to get more creative), as well as sandwich ingredients, because I’d been craving a sandwich really really badly yesterday and it was too painful to even get out of bed, let alone walk.

The supermarket’s like a whole new world in the middle of the day. I usually go between 7pm and 8:30pm, when meat and ready meals (e.g. soba dishes, take-away bento) would be reduced by 50% or more. But in the middle of the day, there are a lot more options. I noticed products I’d never seen before, and ended up buying more than I thought I would. I got something along the lines of a baguette (but anyone French reading this would slay me if they saw the thing I called a “baguette”). Speaking of the French, they don’t really have a tea culture. Coffee-drinkers. If they were assigned a wine speech, or a bread speech, or a cheese speech, they’d probably ace it. I like British bread and cheese, but I suppose they also come up short against the French. Oh, and pastries, cakes, and so on. Even though I also love British dessert creations.

Oh yeah, and Charlie Hebdo published another picture of Mohammad. I wonder how that’s gonna go down. I hope from now on no-one’s going to get in a hissy fit about this, now that this event has shaken up the world. Or are people just going to get MORE pissed, now that so much rage went on in Paris and now people may become encouraged to take action to defend their prophet? Not just radical Muslims trying to avenge Allah, but anyone who gets pissed off at satirical cartoons of any kind?

By the way, the word “neutralized”, which I kept hearing in the news, makes me feel ill.

I think South Park’s two-parter episode Cartoon Wars will forever be relevant. And the two-parter 200 and 201. It’s a pity the new season ended a few weeks ago. They’d be having a field day with this. But I suppose they’ve said a lot already. I always feel happy when a topical subject I care about is incorporated somehow into South Park. Makes all the depressing, scary stuff a little more light-hearted. Like their mention of ISIS in the first episode of Season 18. It was such a small mention, but it made me laugh aloud as it felt like such a stress reliever.

Anyway, I ate my sandwich (a glorious ham-salad-tomato-mayo one), but I had to put it on hold halfway through to go to the compulsory lecture in the CJLC Hall. When I got there, the lecturer was on crutches, but still manage to talk about urushi (lacquer). We’re going on another field trip next week, to the Wakayama prefecture. Not entirely sure what we’re doing, but I look forward to it.

Then I came back, finished my sandwich, did my laundry, got the mince out the freezer and napped for 3 hours. I didn’t know whether it was the aching muscles giving me the illusion I was tired, but I needed it.

Then I woke up and made a delicious spaghetti bolognaise. May be my best one yet. I chopped the vegetables a lot more diligently.

When I went to make the pasta though, one of my flatmates was cooking on the other hob. I hate only having two hobs to share between eight people. To combat this I boiled water in my kettle then put the pasta in, hoping it would somewhat soften it, but then my flatmate finished up and I was able to commence.

I’m not sure if anything else happened today… but anyway, time for bed. One minute until midnight.

Oyasumi!

Day 78: Practising Tea Ceremony in a Japanese-style room 火曜日・2014年12月2日

Of course, the one day I’m two minutes late, Fukuoka-sensei shows up on time… she’s not been on time for any of our Tuesday first period lessons since the first two weeks.

But anyway, it got REALLY cold all of a sudden overnight. It was about 15 degrees Celsius, not too bad, I could handle that in just a jacket and leggings. Then this morning it was suddenly only 5 degrees, and from this point onward it’s only going to get colder. And all the trees with red leaves are now bare, so I’m almost definitely too late to see the red leaves in Kyoto tomorrow. But I’ll deal.

Our first lesson was of course Modern Literature and we finished reading excerpts from Natsume Souseki’s Kokoro (“Heart”), so I wonder if next lesson will just be analysing it, or moving on to the next book. We have an essay to write for next week.

After that was Tea Ceremony, and Fukuoka-sensei took us to a washitsu (Japanese-style room), with tatami and sliding doors. The aim of the lesson was to practise the proper way of kneeling, bowing, walking, and opening/closing the sliding doors.

I was REALLY clumsy during class. Knocked against one of the fragile wooden wall plates too hard, tripped over the step when I was trying to take my shoes off to enter the room, sliding the sliding door back too hard after I made a mistake opening it the first time… I should probably just be kept away from delicate things. Almost like an omen, my jeans ripped at the seam during that lesson (not in an embarrassing area or anything, just up the side of my leg), and they look unable to repair. So hooray, I’m down one pair of jeans. Two, actually – I think I had to throw another pair away about a month ago. They were Primark jeggings, so naturally they were going to die at some point or another.

It’s a good thing I bought that pair of jeans at H&M last Saturday. I guess I’m going to have to go again, though. Bummer.

Anyway, we would have to kneel down, place our hands diagonally across our lap, put our hands forward and bend our entire head and back down to the floor, sit back up, then every time we wanted to move forward we’d place our fists on the floor and use our thumbs to steady ourselves as we pulled ourselves forward. Ultra-finicky.

Closing the door was also quite finicky, as we’d have to go left, left, right, right with our hands – using four motions to open/shut a door.

If you’re facing a door that slides to the right when opening it, you first use your left hand to pull it very slightly apart with the handle, then place your left hand between the door and the frame and slide it further to the right, about halfway across. Then you switch hands and use your right hand to push it slightly further to the right, pause, then again, so that it you slide it to a gentle stop. Then repeat when you close the door, except when you go back through it and close it from the outside, it’ll be sliding to the left, so you have to go right, right, left, left with your hands.

There’s also a technique to be able to stand up elegantly from kneeling down, without, having to bend one knee up first. You have to push yourself up with the balls of your feet, and not wobble when you do it. As I’m carrying a lot of weight, it is naturally quite difficult for me. And I’ve never been great at gymnastics.

I then went along to our compulsory lesson, which I missed last week but no-one has chased me up on so I think I’m okay for now, even though I regret missing it like crazy. (Goddamn you, delivery people.) One of my classmates handed out questionnaires for her sempai‘s sake (sempai meaning upperclassman), regarding shopping in Japan. One of the questions was “do you think most foreigners come for shopping”, another was “what do you think of the Japanese wrapping system? Nice; It’s unique; or it’s a waste of time and paper?”

(I put the last option. While it is very pretty, I have environmental concerns.)

Our compulsory lesson was about images in Japanese culture. I’m not sure but I think we’ve had the teacher before. He says he’s 45, which to me seems impossible because he looked like he could have been in his twenties. I couldn’t see any wrinkles and he looked really young and cool. Then again, Japanese men in their actual twenties probably look more like teenagers. To be honest, most boys my age (20) look like teenagers to me. If we take into account the fact girls mature faster than boys, then they’re technically more like 16-year-olds, after all.

Speaking of, when I went to have my tutor session with Yuko today, we bumped into her friend “Kyushu” who was at Osaka Castle with us. I think he’s 20 as well, but because he’s my age, he reminds me of my friends back home, and I just can’t think of my friends as adults, sorry if that offends any of them if they’re reading this. Maybe I’m only speaking for myself, but even though I feel more adult now at 20, I’m still learning and making mistakes and in a school environment, so I don’t feel like I’ve properly transcended into the “adult world” that a child or a teenager may perceive. Therefore I don’t see most people my age as adults. Even if they have a job and/or are already getting married at this age. The only one my age (who is actually a year older than me) who I can actually think of as an adult is one of my friends from Sixth Form who’s now working in a nursing home. She was always very mature, and seemed kind of mothering in nature, so I always kind of saw her as an adult.

I then came back and ate the remains of my bolognaise from last night, and from this point onward I’m going to try really hard to stick to fish rather than go for the meat. I forgot I was supposed to go to the drug store and pick up some stuff, so I started speaking to Zed, and by the time I remembered it was too late. Oh well. I didn’t need anything important, it was just a lookaround for something like heat defence spray, as I bought curlers and straighteners from the second hand shop and I don’t know or not whether they work. It’s okay, I have serum which kind of acts as a double for heat defence.

Anyway, it’s 22:12 and I’m trying to go to bed around 10pm every night now, so I’ll sign off.

Day 36: Too fast… 火曜日・2014年10月21日

I suddenly had a rush of new followers last night. If you’re new here, welcome! I’ll try not to be a dick. Though I suppose it’s too late for that.

I forced myself to sleep last night. It… kinda worked. Maybe I can get through this on willpower alone after all. But I woke up like every twenty minutes, and I had a grey face and prominent bags under my eyes for the rest of the day.

Hopefully after I sleep tonight my schedule will be back in order.

This morning I had Fukuoka-sensei for Modern Literature and Tea Ceremony again. In Modern Lit we’re studying Kokoro (Heart) by Souseki Natsume, which is a very famous story, but from what I understand we’ll only be covering a few excerpts rather than the whole book, so I’ll have to do a lot of background research.

Modern Lit is supposedly an intermediate class, but Fukuoka-sensei speaks too fast. Way, way too fast. She sped-red through the excerpts, and you know how fast you can read your own language off paper – pretty goddamn fast. There’s no way I’ll ever get to that level, as she barely had to glance at the kanji and hiragana to know what it was saying. I still practically scrutinize every letter, and compared to sensei I speak at snail’s pace.

I didn’t understand what was going on in Tea Ceremony at all. I’ll have to read the handout again.

In both of these lessons, where I was content to let the fast-spoken Japanese fly right over me, I conducted a useful schedule in which to organise my time better:

7am: Wake up, have a shower if needed, read Japanese newspaper articles/ watch their news to get me into the swing of recognising Japanese from early in the morning. Try to make that process last about an hour.

After lessons:
= homework (2 hours min)
= extra research, may include more news (1 hour)
= read Confessions (1 hour)
= write blog post (1 hour)

11pm: Go to bed. Try to avoid electronics an hour before attempting sleep.

So I’m going to try to limit blog post writing time to one hour. Which I think is a good idea because I tend to go off on a tangent about stuff completely unrelated to Japan.

I went to the international meeting room after Tea Ceremony to fill out a volunteer application form for the school visits. While I was there I met a girl called Sayuki, who told me to come back so that we could continue to converse in Japanese some day. Her major is in German, so I maybe be able to be of some help there.

Then I had homeroom with Mizuki-sensei. I accidentally sat right in front of him today. But it wasn’t awkward like the other time, even though the conversation DID go off-topic and asked if anyone had a boyfriend/girlfriend. The guy from Holland has a girlfriend who lives in Hong Kong. Other people mentioned they were trying to find Japanese boyfriends.

I’m… so tired as I write this, but the idea of trying to be appealing to anyone makes me want to crawl under the covers even more.

I didn’t bring any ‘cute’ clothes with me to Japan. This is who I am, a slob who wears male jeans with huge pockets and sweaters adorned with Harry Potter Pusheen, and if you can’t accept that… well, you’re probably normal.

Sensei let us go early as usual, and I chatted with a guy called Sean from Taiwan for a bit before heading off to meet Rika at the shokudou. He was very nice. I think he’s in Fukuoka-sensei’s Lit class with me.

When I met up with Rika, she had a friend with her, a Japanese-born American who lives 30 minutes out of Atlanta, Georgia. I’ll called her Rena. She spoke amazingly cute Kansai-ben, imitating her grandmother very accurately.

It turns out she knows Kiwi, that girl we met at the international party, and if everything goes according to plan, we may be doing karaoke on Thursday! Yay!

I forgot I had a tutor meeting with Yuko-san until the last minute, so I had to say goodbye. But Yuko-san and I had a very interesting session talking about euphemisms. “Time of the month” in Japanese is onna no ko no hi (day of the girl). I told Yuko-san some Northern slang, as well as various British ways of saying hey had too much to drink. “I got absolutely plastered last night.” “Got absolutely bladdered.” “I was off my face.”

When I got back to the flat, Shin knocked on the door with cake. The top was very sweet, sticky and hard like egg shell, reminding me of crème brulée. So lovely and sweet.

And I really can’t think of anything else to say. I’m so tired, I guess I’m looking for an excuse to drop into bed and sleep.

Oh, one last thing I guess. I handed in my completed timetable, signed by Mizuki-sensei. So here’s what I’m studying:

Monday:
Japanese Civilization, Religion, Calligraphy

Tuesday:
Modern Literature, Tea Ceremony, Culture, Tutoring Session

Wednesday:
Linguistics, Japanese texts

Thursday:
No lessons

Friday:
Ethnology, Politics

 

Emptier than before, yet fuller because it’s stuff I actually wanna do.